I have a life
It’s not a bad life;
Though it could be better.
I love where I live
I love the mountains
I only wish I could get out of the house more than I do
I want to learn about narrative medicine and be a social worker
And help make lives just a little better by being here–even my own.
I would find a community of friends who would know me and support me
Both online and in person.
I would find a spiritual community to help heal edges torn long ago, too long ago to remember.
I would be in charge of my life again–not just the limitations.
I wouldn’t feel so alone, even when I’m not, because I’d be with people who understand.
And wonder if
You will be part
Of the life I live
Are you gone for good now?
I only wanted to make things right
How can I ever make things right alone?
It would be so easy. But somehow it’s not.
Instead of calling or texting, we both sit in silence.