I always thought that if I kept writing, kept creating, one day I’d find that the fear had lessened or even disappeared. I knew it hadn’t happened yet, but I still hoped it would be true.
Until I read the above quote by Elizabeth Gilbert, that is. Liz Gilbert shattered all my hopes and dreams of an unencumbered creative life. Creativity and fear are conjoined twins? You mean I’d have to kill one to get rid of the other one? That was NOT what I signed up for at all!
Some days are better than others. Some days I can sit at the keyboard and not feel like i should be terrified to let anyone read any of the words I wrote that just seem so WRONG now that I read them silently to myself! Other days, not so much.
Most days are somewhere in the middle. There are trickles of fear, but they aren’t paralyzing. I can still write a blog post without having a panic attack.
Sometimes I’m not sure if anyone is actually reading what I write, but that is to be expected. There’s a void that I can’t see into. I can’t hear anyone cheering me on like I’m a football player. They don’t do that for writers and bloggers, do they? Maybe we have to be our own cheering section.
I can only send you all the encouragement and good vibes for good creating. The more you share them, the more you have. It’s kind of like ideas. Don’t hoard what you’ve got–there’s enough to go around. Act out of your abundance.